Temper Tantrum

When Camron and Caden don't get their way, they sometimes lay in the floor, kicking and screaming. Do you ever feel like doing that? Well, I do. To be quite honest, I wish I could do it right now. I'm not getting my way. I used to be the kind of girl who HAD to be in control. Don't get me wrong, I still like to know what's coming and plan accordingly BUT I have succumbed to the fact that I didn't write this book. I wasn't even asked to help with the editing. I can, though, submit. I can surrender. I can give in. But, I will NOT give up! That's just not my style. PSALM 118:5-6 says "out of my distress I called on the Lord; the Lord answered me and set me free. The Lord is on MY side; I will NOT fear. What can man do to me?" Polymyositis will NOT get the best of me! This disease will NOT hinder my faith! Then, JEREMIAH 29:11 says "for I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." As much as I wish my life hadn't taken some of the turns it has, I am forever thankful for the blessings I have been given thus far. I know that God has a bigger plan for me and that one day I will "get" it. I don't understand, right now, at this moment, why I have this disease or why none of the medications I have been given seem to work BUT what I do know is that I will be fine, I will survive, and I will come out on top! I covet all of your prayers. Please pray for wisdom. Wisdom in me as well as the doctors! Pray that this will be figured out and we will find a treatment that will work. My levels may be on the rise but guess what, so is my hope...and that's a good thing!