We are at our second annual trip to the Great Wolf Lodge. This is actually our third time coming but started last year at the anniversary of losing Jordan. It's a good way to celebrate our family...think about where we've been, what we've been through, how far we've come. In many aspects of our life, but mainly over the past two years. The kids look forward to this trip. They love the water and we discovered yesterday that Joss loves it too! She is fearless! Good thing she has 3 over protective big brothers!
I woke up this morning with a lump in my throat. It's so hard to believe that 2 years ago today I woke up and headed to the hospital praying that what I was afraid was true, really wasn't. It's hard to believe that we have come so far since that sad, dark day. It's hard to believe that at 32 and 33 years old (and 8, 6, and 6 as well) we have endured the pain we have endured. But just as the Lord commanded, we persevered. We did our very best to be obedient. I thank Him daily for bringing us through that valley of pain. That pit of darkness. I know, beyond a shadow of doubt, that it pained our Lord to see us hurt so badly because I know how badly my heart hurts to see my children in pain.
I still miss my sweet Jordan. My arms will always ache to hold him. But I know that I will hold him. I know he will be waiting for me on that glorious day I go home to be with Jesus. And while here on earth, I have 4 beautiful children that the Lord has blessed me with. I am so thankful. Thankful for where I've been. Thankful for where I'm going. Thankful for those who are walking with me, encouraging me, loving me. I'm thankful for the lives I am able to change because of my circumstances.
As Ann Voskamp said, "I want to see beauty. In the ugly, in the sink, in the suffering, in the daily, in all the days before I die, the moments before I sleep."
I have more I *want * to say today....but these sweet kids want to take a trip to the gift shop before the water park opens. So until tomorrow, here are a few pics of the kids.
Yesterday at the park.
This morning when they first woke up. Camron's funny face is because he was about to yawn! I think I caught Joss mid-blink! Love the bedhead!
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Your family has been on my hearts and in my prayers this past week as I knew your time was drawing near. Continued prayers being sent your way friend!
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