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Monday, July 12, 2010

July 12th

To many people, today was just an ordinary day. Not for me. Today was my due date. The day we planned to welcome our 4th son into our family. We did welcome Jordan into our family. A lot earlier than planned. And Jesus welcomed him home unexpectedly. Unexpectedly to us that is, but not to Him. I wish I could explain the sense of peace in my heart. I know my child is in heaven. I know I will see him again one day. I miss him like crazy but I love the thought of him in Jesus' arms. I remember posting the verse, "weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning" (Psalm 30:5) early on and wow, how true that is. Ironically, all day today, I have had the song "Before the Morning" by Josh Wilson in my head. I love that song. I then heard it on the way to work this afternoon. Here are the lyrics for those of you who haven't heard it....(and I recommend you listen to it if you haven't)

Do you wonder why you have to,
feel the things that hurt you,
if there's a God who loves you,
where is He now?
Maybe, there are things you can't see
and all those things are happening
to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see
Chorus:
Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming
so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning
My friend, you know how this all ends
and you know where you're going,
you just don't know how you get there
so just say a prayer.and hold on,
cause there's good who love God,
life is not a snapshot,
it might take a little time,
but you'll see the bigger picture
Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming
so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning
yeah, yeah,before the morning,yeah, yeah
Once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
memory, memory, yeah
Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming
Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming
com'n, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the hurt before the healing
the pain you've been feeling,
just the dark before the morning
before the morning, yeah, yeah
before the morning

Here is a picture of Jordan's beautiful monument.
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6 comments:

Janet said...

I have been praying for you all day today. I love the poem you wrote for your Jordan...so special

Angela Rascoe said...

I have been praying for you everyday remembering how excited I was that you might have your sweet Jordan on my birthday. It breaks my heart to think of you hurting today. Know that I love you. We all know God has a plan and that He loves you so much. I pray He can comfort you in a mighty way.

lillymac said...

Oh Jenn, every time I hear that song... I think of you too! I am glad you have felt peace today, but I know your day has been filled with lots of different emotions too. Know you have so many around you praying for you, thinking of you, and in your corner just for you. Love you sweet friend. Had you on my heart all day.

leigh anna said...

i tried not to be honest, and tried to leave a "nice" comment, but i just can't.

i cried for you many times today. i begged Him to take your pain, and to give me peace with my Pickle. and we all know begging doesn't look pretty! i continue to be amazed by you! i admire you in so many ways, but your relationship with the Lord is one to be commended. i love you jenn duke!

The Crooked Sticks said...

Love you! I was definitely praying extra hard for you yesterday...

Twin Mommy said...

I thought about you a lot yesterday. It sounds like you are in a pretty good place. Beautiful Head Stone and Beautiful Poem! You are an awesome woman and mamma!!