This was an email sent out late Wednesday night to those who attended Jordan's Memorial service. To get you up to speed, one of our closest family friends went over and above and got us butterflies to release at the service. This is SO God.....
Just now, Chris and I came upstairs to go to bed. He was going to jump in the shower so I sat down here at the computer to check email. Earlier I had gone through the box that held those wonderful butterflies today deciding what to do with the last few "packets". There were 4 empty packets (we had given some to our parents and grandparents, etc.). I had been teary earlier as I held the box, talked to Chris about them, was just so thankful to have been able to do that. We made extra sure that box made it home. I held it earlier when the family was here, left it on the stairs till I came upstairs earlier this afternoon where I have sat numerous times today, alone in the quiet in my room. All that said, Chris started running the water, I was reading the email and I heard a noise. It was a fluttering noise. I first looked at our window for a fly or something then I noticed the box. I grabbed it, pulled everything out and there were 5 packets in the box, one containing a lone butterfly still waiting for his release. I yelled for Chris which of course scared him, we went downstairs (yes he got dressed first) and we released our last little butterfly. One of the smallest of them all, in our own front yard. It just seems amazing to me and I wanted to share it with those of you who were there.
Today, I decided I wanted to share it with the rest of you. God works in mysterious ways. I had not seen nor heard anything in that box the entire day. This was nothing short of a miracle to me. Our God is an AWESOME God. He knew I needed that last butterfly. He knew Chris and I needed that time, alone, together here at home to release him into the world on the day we released our earthly son to our Heavenly Father.
6 comments:
I am so thankful that we all know and love such an amazingly wonderful God!
Praying for you!
Thanks for sharing!
Thanks for sharing Jenn. That's one of the best stories I have heard in a long long time. God does work in mysterious ways and I'm so thankful he gave that special moment for you and Chris to share.
That is a beautiful story. I have often thought of stillbirth as being similar to the transformation of a caterpiller into a butterfly. We don't mourn the loss of the caterpillar-it is simply now a magnificent butterfly. I still mourn for our babies but it does ease the pain a bit. I do have a story of hope for you when you are ready.
We are praying for peace and comfort for your family. What a blessing your boys (and husband) have in you. I am awed by your bravery in sharing your story when it is so deeply painful. May the awesome God who has given you such strength and the seed of such amazing love wrap his arms about you and give you peace.
WOW!!! God is so awesome and amazing. I love how he comforts us when we most need it. He is watching after you Jenn. Thank you for sharing this story.
Isn't God so wonderful that he gives us those little gifts that remind us that he is with us even in our darkest hours.
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